Society even expects parents of disabled children to feel this way and say things of this nature. They feel "sorry" for parents of disabled children. Society extends pity and forgiveness when a parent to a disabled person does something heinous (like murder) or abusive.. because you know, we are so hard to love and care for.
So, I don't even know why I was shocked yesterday when a mother of a child with Down's Syndrome said her daughter often says "Down's Syndrome sucks", and the mother encourages this talk because she says it's her child's "self expression". This person believes that this is actually her accepting her daughter.
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text reads : If you tell your child
"Don't be mad at yourself, be mad at autism" or
"It's not you, it's autism" you are
teaching your child internalized ableism
This is a response I wrote on the particular thread I am speaking of...
So, I am not going to be redundant because all of the points I would make are already written out... As an autistic parent to an autistic child I have one thing to add... My need for support will never ever trump my children's RIGHT to respect and privacy.
Saying "I hate autism" or any variation of that is disrespectful to your child.
I have personally heard these words said TO ME : "I love you but *insert whatever thing people hate*".. It screws with your self esteem,it causes internalized albeism.. It causes those "I hate this part of myself" or "this part of myself sucks" thoughts.
If your children are admitting they think a part of them sucks...as a parent you are responsible for helping them figure out it's not them or their neurology... if you do nothing to counteract that type of thinking in your children, you are contributing to it... you are allowing them to think they are a problem....
Of course,what followed my reply was disagreement, but there was also something I was not expecting, but further strengthens my stance that expressions of internalized ableism are first taught and encouraged by parents to their children:
interesting that asd somehow prevents you from hating parts of yourself that are causing you problems while the rest of the world is ok with that concept and we all realize we are not hating ourselves, but the things that we must work harder to deal with
So, society expects me to hate parts of myself, and this person basically tells me it's okay to go ahead and hate a part of myself.
What kind of a fucked up world are we living in when people advocate that it's okay to hate ANY part of yourself and that it's even expected of a disabled person to hate them self because they have challenges? Can people not fathom that one can have struggles and challenges in their life, while also completely accepting and loving them self?
I have been down the road of deep self hatred, it's not pretty. I have felt like a burden, I have hated my self for existing, I have been told things I do or can not help make other people's lives harder. I have been told to try harder to not be so... so ME!
I have scars I look at every day that remind me I have been in that place. I have lingering anxiety due to prolonged self hatred. I still struggle immensely with my self esteem. 2.5 years ago I was in the most deepest darkest place. I have worked hard to overcome much of that, really really hard.
So, for somebody (or society) to suggest that it is expected of me to hate myself or at least parts of myself, makes me want to RAGE.
Engaging in this conversation yesterday completely validates what I have always thought, self hate and ableism do not naturally occur, it is learned... either by parents, society as a whole, schools, therapists, etc....
It's time we break this cycle. If you're a parent that curses your child's disability. STOP! If you are a parent who tells their child " It's not you, it's your autism"... STOP.
If you have a child that exclaims they hate their autism, it's your job as a parent to recognize that is a sign of self hatred and self esteem issues. It is a sign that something is very wrong and is your cue to teach your children how to reflect appropriately and figure out exactly what the root of the frustration is. It is absolutely, positively not okay to encourage self hatred. EVER.
The ADA, enacted 24 years ago in 1990, states " Disability is a natural part of the human experience" but, yet here we are... living in a society that still sees disabled people as not human.
As a parent or caregiver to disabled people it is your job to demand that the stigmatization and dehumanization of disabled people stop.
As a parent/caregiver you are obligated to push the message of acceptance and inclusion in society.
It is your duty to demand presumption of competence.
It is your responsibility to fight like hell for the rights of disabled people, along side disabled people.
Change doesn't happen over night. The more we expose society to disability, demand equality, debunk myths and stereotypes... the easier it will get for generations to come. It is up to us to break this terrible cycle.